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I've moved. You'll know why. Anyway, its been worth it here. I just need a better rebound already. Love you! & i'll see you there.
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I wanna change my blogskin. Make my own perhaps? Tried & failed, tried & failed, tried & still trying & finally ignored.
I will update smokin' news to you in time to come, just not yetttt. ;) And! The best person to swim with, is your man. Meanwhile, i'm living with 6 to 8 weeks of holidays.
Non-malays, Sweet Xscape is no reason to miss!
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And all of those are for me?
I couldn't ask for a better rebound, or maybe i could, but haven't you see that i am no Miss Gigantic-pain-in-your-ass? I might just be the cream on your cake. The only thing lamerer than making a promise, is trusting a liar. I would just been officially one, if i were to make a promise to my bestfriend that, i would accompany her in school next week. (Laughs) I didn't, really. She'd warned me that i'll die of her bites.
You know, i actually learnt chinese tongue twisters to make myself smarter. Call me silly, thank you. Its definitely mildly demoralising to learn chinese because i actually said the exact pronunciation as my chinese friend did, but by right i've changed the meaning already. -_____- I have to admit, Malay Language is seriously alot easier. I will admit i did no better in malay too, but it is because of my will to pass it in O'Levels last year, god gave me a juicy B3. Beat that! Blerggghhh~ Who can't, show offs. Hahaha! Whatever is wrong with me. =D
Actually, my nickname is Jellyfish, given by none other than the witch, Jamie Victoria. *roll eyes* & its proven! Like thousand times in an hour. Basically it means my brain just lacks alertness & alotttttt of IQ, if that makes you clearer of the whole Jellyfish idea. I'm out here, warning every single one of you, that my fetish of revenge has never taken a vacation. " Did i just sounded evil? " :O I really am not that bad, as how my book of history tells you. In fact, i'm the best happy pill you'll ever swallow. Try me. I just wish my boyfriend stays this way, the way i like him. Definitely hoping last night's treatment from him was sincere, because i grant wishes, i can sincerely love him back. Being treated like a total princess is the first thing that can make a lady smile. But sincerity opens up her heart, to almost anyone any minute.
If calling 911 doesn't reach to Insan Abdullah the life saver, the next dial would be 999, reaching Jamie Victoria the care taker. Looks like i always had my back taken care of, but i'm not the right person you wanna try your messing skills with. You might get worst, that you feel its too much for you to deserve. Yesssss, i'm threatening! I've had my worst migrane ever last night, i can't take burdens.
For the people on my speed dials! I ever so love you all. You know who you are.
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If man can never be perfect, why do i feel like everything is going the way i want it to be? Can i want nothing to change even abit? Nothing last forever, i know. Its just a matter of time.
I like how things have been going for me, but i feel like i have lack of many things. Last night, i've been thinking way too much, says 'Jamie always sick' and ' Bukhari always getting into trouble'. I just need to know, that i have everyone by my side.
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[Using Wireless @ SG in Frontier Library]
Well, yesss. The wireless here can't seem to support blogger, which resort to a page error. It doesn't matter though because i've got something to say.
Ever felt like you're behaving way too high?
That is not so much of an issue but, you see.. For me, being too high can seem like you're just noise polluting. When i get home & think about what i've done, if i happen to talk too much or been playing too much, i would feel like a fool. What malays called it as 'Merepek'.
I would personally feel embarrassed then, & would change for the better next day.
Jokes are jokes. But not all jokes are funny!
Oh, speaking of that. I have someone in mind. Lucky for him, this wireless do not support blogger or not, his face's gna be up here, right here. He got away lucky, remember that.
There is this guy, who was never a friend of mine. Technically, my brother's secondary school classmate? Well something like that. He thinks he belongs to the safe zone where people do not have any issues about him, but not me! Not him! Not her!
HE THINKS.
Anyway, he likes to say that, "Your brother ah. Copycat you know. Like no originality, follows trend blindly... *quacks away* "
Little did he know, he is no difference! He, himself, do not have a mindset of his own! " Boo sama lu, mat rep! "
So what if he is up to date with Dickies. He is more like a paparazzi!
He stalks everyone & coming from a guy, he is nothing more than a newspaper! At times, being a newspaper is not a bad thing, but this dude here, practically will start criticising someone when another someone does it too!
How retarded is that! I bet he is fine with whatever he's aware of, but if one were to critisize someone, he follows too, how different is that from my brother!
" At least, he follows trend blindly. Not like you, follow the wrong mouth. "
Oh yes, you know i like revenge, do you? It is deliciously sweetttttt. =) Ah ahhh! Do not get the wrong idea. I was never unreasonable.
But this guy has to be put to a stop.
You know how? *eyebrow goes up & down* Actually, i think i shan't tell you. I'm not surprised if the main character in this post itself, is reading this. He sureeeee do.
" Fuck you, & you're 19, it was never a big fuck across my face. 19, but not progressing. Oh! You were suppose to be in the NS right now. You're still out here? Settling school still? Ahhh, see. Thats a shame. Study first, man. Do yourself a favour because right now, you're near to becoming my sushi. "
It is absolutely logical if someone who has progressed far in life, boasting at your face. At least he has something, do you? You're of no comparison. Think of what you're about to do, about who you are.
Personal comments is far different from critisism. An absolute distinct comparison. Never allow yourself to look like a fool. The best way, is to keep your mouth shut. I have never talk bad about people because i know, i'm not on par.
Are you? Think again.
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I'm so proud of this soldier here. He was never ever happy about National Service but today, what makes a man happy is that he is now, someone important. I was extremely elated for him that i actually jumped up the moment he told me that....
Recruit no longer recruit, I LOVE YOU LANCE CORPORAL!
Yes, i am so proud of him because he never fails to do thousands of favors for his country. Even though he gets extremely tired of National Service at times, plus his girlfriend who just can't stop giving him unnecessary extra loads to damage his brain, he is still there for both National Service & his girlfriend. OMGOMGOMGOMG i can't be more prouddddd. Lance Corporal sounds so sexaaay to meeeee~ *roll eyes*
Blow kisses!
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So, Suntec Dance was alright, isn't it? Yes yes! The hype might not be there yet, i can't wait for more! But most importantly, i finally got to meet the darlings! Ever so cheerful, ever so lovely. Not to mention, my circle of friends actually widen that day. *eyebrow goes up & down* Pictures have been posted up on Facebook. I was just a photographer that day. It sure cheers alot of people up.
& also, i'm gonna catch the next episode of Singapore Idol! Cause you know why? One of the top 24 in Singapore Idol, made friends with me yesterday during Suntec Dance! She might have been expecting me to know who she is, but i'm sorry i don't follow up. Hahaha.. It was nice knowing her, unfortunately, i couldn't get her name. " I'll find your name, lady. I will. & all the best for your idol! " This lady is awesome, because she is the first caucasion that speaks singlish. =) She asked me if i could dance. She admitted that she can't dance at all. She sings, & you know.. She wonders if i have any friends who entered the idol, so she went, " Well, you have one now. " She rocks! Follow up idol already! Hahahaha..
My busy days are finally over & done with. Moving on with the next semester in school, i'm gonna do good in it. But so far, school's been awesome. Serious. No more skipping lectures too! Irresistable.
I just wanted to admit that it was a pure coincidence for knowing this soldier here. I haven't been feeling good with him these days. Another darling soldier adviced me saying, " NS really shake relationships alot. Call me. " Thats Bukhari, by the way. No one else wants me to call them 24/7, but him. (Laughs) Anyway, i really do not know about myself at this point of time. I haven't been a good girlfriend, you know. Whatever is wrong with me. I know, its all about those National Service irritants, but i behave as though i refuse to understand that.
I look hard at myself, after such a long time, Ms Perfect No More Perfect? But i'm glad, that i am no longer a piece of perfection. Only then i feel like a human. Or not, i would have been a partygirl all my life! I do not know what i'm saying. I really love this soldier. Enough said.
Like after so long, only now i realise that, there's a few things i do not like about myself. Being unhappy with yourself, is sick.
I'm taking it easy. First thing to do, is to wake up, & smile. Its not crazy, it might help? =)
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Tell me if i'm wrong. Tell me if i've hurt these people. Take a look at the list below.
I need to know, they say truth hurts? I'm back to ONLY pleasing people. Do not care about myself? Selfless, in disguise being hurt, actually?
I know that is bad, to be selfless in that state. Sometimes, that is still the best way to smile at then end of the day, right? :(
Jamie Victoria Guna, My Superwoman.
- I answered her call, late by 10minutes because i was busy 'repairing' my web publishing codes. But i called back after that, as soon as possible. I feel bad because she sounds moodless & depreciated. I didn't mean it. I know being busy should not be a reason. I seek your understanding, J. :(
- I haven't been meeting her even a minute every other day because i was too busy with CA2 assignments. 4 module assigments in a week? Not easy at all. Very very very hard, tell me you felt it before. Because you wouldn't understanding me if you hadn't had it. By the look of it, it is still not accurate enough to judge my situation.
- I didn't accompany her to Track & Field trainings. Though i promised to, i still break it. Damn media school, i'm seriously too busy.
I'm really sorry though. :( You know, if i had to cancel some plans, that is the most logical thing i should do, at some point. I just can't be there for you sometimes. Still, i beg for an apology.
My man
I really have got nothing to say to you, but i still beg for an apology for whatever you felt i was wrong.
I'm really really sorry. :(
Jian Han, My Classmate.
I'm sorry i didn't do your survey because i wasn't even stable myself, right now. At least your website is working normally. Not mine, darling. Mine is fucked up! & little did i know, i handed in a fucked up piece!
How bad can my fate be? I seek for your understanding. But still, i'm really sorry for ignoring your 'helplessly wanting some help' favour. :(
I'm really sorry.
I kind of don't know who else to apologise, but i know, i haven't been nice. I can't be nice this week. I'm not even being nice to myself. Pleaseeeee. Leave me alone.
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I miss you even more, soldier. It just never grow old.
=((((
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I've just been doing too many things, snapping too many pictures every other day, i have more than a thousand words to update you with my days, too many pretty pictures to show. Facebook will do the job, & oh! I've currently deleled alot of albums from my Facebook, & posting up new ones! Coolness? Definitely.
Confession. CA2? Sucks! I screwed up alot of things for this CA2! I handed in 2 assignments late in minutes (it counts! What do you know!), my videography is like a failed attempt! OK, not really. We're just too last minute, i suppose. We did not procrastinate so much already, but.. This CA2, is seriously not far away from the previous CA1. OK, don't blame the system, but seriously. All assignments was given at 1 time! Talking about 6 modules, as good as dead, isn't it? (I'm just moaning. Sorry.) Right after today, i'm technically a free bird! No more assignments, no more sleeping at 4am & waking up 3 hours later, no more headaches. MORE shopping, MORE photography, MORE free time! =D
Then again, CA2 do not turn out well for many of us, actually.
I might spend alot of my time now, doing photo editting & keep my Facebook page fresh & alive. OR meeting boyfriend every other days! =D I kind of love that boyfriend alot. Seriously, he's gonna think i'm sucha baby. Technically, standing on your man's feets instead of yours, is cute. But logically, it is ridiculous! Hahahaha.. He doesn't mind so far. Crazy much?
Watch this.
Amazed? Envious, perhaps? This is Bboy Ahmad. I'm doing this small 20cents favour for him right now. Well, he is conducting classes for breakdancing, both guys & girls. If this is something you could only wish, make it real this time. Visit http://bboymad.blogspot.com/ for more details about him, & the classes he would conduct. You really do not have to be shy, if breakdancing is really something you wish you're capable of it. I've had my chance to learn from him, & i swear he is absolutely patient. Nevermind your cowardness for a minute or retardness of your hands especially. Hahahaha! Then again, he'll guide you very closely, very carefully you'll overtook your cowardness any minute. Want it? Go for it! =D Fun is essential, knowledge is thirst. " I sound like the next newspaper. "
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I've been told that you won't get to keep what you have, forever, because its not up to you to decide. Gladly or sadly, it is something i just have to understand that, it is just the way it is. But this something that i still keep with me, i'm gonna just keep wanting to keep it, all for myself, even if something would just have to snatch it away from me. I can't let this something go, i love it. Too much, wayyyy too much that even if that something has to be away for only one day, it cost my tears. See how meaningful that something is, to me? Just this one thing alone, nothing else.
Could dreams be turned into Dejavu, when you don't need it? Could one control its movement? Because really, if one could get mad at me about the dream i had, it seems like dreams tell future. Grossssss~ No way, mannnn. Anyway, i really miss dancing alot. Fats are just clinging on me like hooks, its disgusting, really. What more, when i'm not much different from a pig, its just like asking a mannequin to move. Absolutely not moving, of course. I wanna go swimming alot, soon. Because being out in the streets, aimlessly walking & planning, nonsense stuff. On the other hand, i shall control my diet again! Like eating as much as a baby? Boyfriend's gonna kill me if he finds out. Or worst, my bestfriend. Oh, good news! She isn't sick anymore! A minute ago, i chatted with her when she told me that she's at her work place. =D
Alternatively, do wishes come true? Or do god grant wishes immediately? Because i want my boyfriend back, to me. Please? =(
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Tell me if you like me. At least i've got a chance to be a better friend for you. & that you'll never feel less depreciated. I know you know, we definitely will still be friends & only friends.
I have a boyfriend now. & he cannot be far from me. I need him. Not as much as you. He's the most. Labels: reaching out.
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Actually, i really do not have the time to blog right now. Little did i know that there isn't any Web Publishing lesson today at this hour due to National Day, is it? Or just do not have any lessons. -____- I wasted my guts to walk past the matrep's corner at the taxi stand okay! I go to school alone, like wow~ One of the many few times. Hahaha! Hows my storyboarding coming alone?
Well, its coming along very good. I improve on my drawings so very very tremendously, i couldn't be more proud of myself. Seriously, i'm actually doing something i don't even have a heart to, something i do not like even one bit. But i still did it! 33 frames drawn, when the minimum requirement is 24 frames? Thats more than awesome, isn't it? Yeaaa, i don't believe one could failed because he/she totally do not have interest. Everything requires patient, the 'want' to do it, you'll make it. You'll do awesome if you want to. Really.
I really miss my boyfriend so much right now. Since today is friday, i suppose i'm meeting up with him! That retarded soldier is one hella cheeky boy, actually. Comes with a mean girlfriend like me, poor dude. He, who withstand all my mood swings, all my random craves, everything. He ever admit he is paranoid about the whole thing, but he never fails to say " I still love you, i don't care. " Tell me i'm extremely blessed. Then again sweetie, you have to play this game of mine, before you get to me. I love you, darling soldier. (L)
XOXO! I think i really love my blog alot. Hehehe! & i'm actually rather depressed that my bestfriend is sick at home. Poor Jamie. I love you, J. Get well soon, i'll come over to your house someday. You'll be okay, i promise.
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& yesterday (5th August), i've been busy with filming at Sembawang for almost the wholeeee day! Raining sunshine is certainly an irritant till one of us was like, " Wah lao! This kind of rain ah, no warning one leh! Anyhow fall on earth! ". Hahaha.. Simultaneously, we all were trying to complete our storyboarding drawings too. The production on that day belongs to Foo Lilin & Shi Hui. 3/4 of the class were involved in their filming & i'm telling you, its hectic! Yettttt, never been more fun in our course, but this. =)
Photo blog for now!
So, we had our breakfast @ 11+ am in Sembawang Mall. & i just had to post this picture up! There's one more picture of another classmate of mine, but i was trying to prove to that classmate of mine that that unglam picture was taken by me, but her (the girl in this picture). I had to delete it to prove my honesty (NOT!). Hahaha.. Sucha waste. But then again...
Don't be mean, Naddddd. Tsk tsk!
& yessss, so, as soon as we reached Shi hui's house (Director), i settle down & started my storyboarding. Considering the fact that i can't draw that well ( I'm improving, turning from stickman to manga. Have you seen my latest storyboard? Hahah! Whatever, Nad. ), i tried my best. Coincidentally, at this corner of her house gave me absolute calmness & most importantly, peace. A very nice house, really.
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" I'm copying this! Exactly like this! See see see! ", says Foo Lilin (the one in this picture). Hahhh! Plagarism, you fool. Plagarism. I suppose you'll only learn when you go to your Uni. Tsk tsk tsk!
This is Jian Han. He is a girly boy, i should say. HAHAHAHAHA! He is as annoying as Lilin, except for the fact that he draws anime out of his own creative mind, not like some people! *eyebrow goes up & down* I'm so dead for saying this.
There you go. The camerawoman for the day's production is your one & only, Ms Foo Lilin. She looks like an alien here, don't she? Hahaha.. Well, indoor filming for this one, at Director's House.
" Nadddd! Get up, its time for us to go out & film. Stop drawing. Lets go. "
Here you have them! From left, Cher Yeng (Character in the film), Shi hui (The Director), Foo Lilin (The big head who forever gets this kind of treatment from us. She's just hilarious, really. Aaaah i can't stand it.), Jian Han (Helper for the production) & Mei Xian (Character in the film).
Let me tell you a story. A very short one. In this photo, 3/5 can draw anime very well, or at least sensibly & logically. *drools*
& what do we have here? From Left, keelun (Character in the film), Zhu Xi (Character in the film), Foo Lilin (Get lost, big head! You're everywhere i see.) & Jeremiah (Character in the film).
" Nadzirah is the whiniest person you'll ever meet. Even the remaining 1/4 of the class would say so too. Its nothing new to me already. "
" Eh whaaaaat whiny! " " Jian Han! Give me back my camera! I wanna do something right now! " " Jeremiah! Take my photo, come! "
Ah! Very nice. (Laughs) The moment Jian Han took my Canon away from Jeremiah, I went, " Jian Han! Come! I wanna take picture of a butterfly! "
Jian Han: This is not butterfly. This is a tiger moth. Me : Okay tiger. Jian Han : Moth. Me : Moth.
Tadaaaa! Canon is awesome, which is why she is my new girlfriend now. *winks* She is plain awesome, where words can't describe its excellency & perfection. I'm obssessed, aren't i?
You'll never be happy as a character of a film.
" Eh hello Shi Hui. Where's the hairspray ah? Its not in my bag lehhh. Did you left it at your house? Bring okay. Hurry up. "
" I think i look very cute in this picture. " Oh pleaseeee, Foo Li Lin. I'm telling you, its like finally you look normal in a picture. HAHAHAHA! Crazy girl.
" Aaaah i'm the only one who is filming the guys now. Oh my gawwwdddd~ "
& off she went, to the next venue. I'm personally amazed while seeing her in action with the serious suit. Good Job, Camerawoman! In addition, its really funny to realise that, she actually scream at the top of her voice, trying to get the boys to coorperate & work fast, as they played soccer with some stray empty bottles on the patch of grass nearby. Funnnaaaaay~
By this hour, it is already 6pm. I begin to slack by bit & not really helping out because my part is over. To be honest, my class really isn't a bunch of freaks (Quoted from Lilin's mouth). Hahahaha! But i want to agree, you know, the first day of school, i cannot utter a word to listen most of them saying, " I love comics & manga. " How was i suppose to fit in, at that time! Lilin feels the same way too. They really aren't that bad. They're awesome fun!
Text message, " Baby! I want ice cream! " " I want umbrellaaaaa! I miss you. "
Very satisfied, ma'am? Good day, fool.
And so, a very nice day which was no doubt, very tiring & humid weather plus crazy rain all of a sudden. My time then was really worth while. & I'm never happier about school because now that i'm more organized, its really such a relief.
& the only idiot who thinks i treat school like a playground is none other than my man. Grrr! I think i've understood school better already. Right now, i really miss him. Its a thursday which logically means, i'm meeting him tomorrow! & Monday is national day.. Yaaaaaay! Extra one day to have fun with the soldier. He's turning 1 year soldier already! (Laughs) The kind of happiness soldiers felt, we girls just can't understand why. Oh, don't bother also & all they think of, is ORD. Unfortunately for this ass, his ORD is like in another year's time! Dreaaaaam on, darlingggg. =DDDDD
Relating back to the title of this entry, i'm wondering how my very own film will be carried out. Tskkk! But helps are being offered in advance! Something less to worry about, when helps are coming from my very own lovely classmates. " Go Animeeeee! ". -_________- Yeaaa, you wish i'm obssessed with comics & anime, but because of my course, i had to do it. Don't tease me, you little retards!
XOXO!
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I can't help it. I'm not clinghy, i just loves Insan so much! =D Its a crazy love story we're writing, you would be overwhelmed or find it mindblowing but what we care more, is what we have for us. Why am i saying all this? He's having his duties today, which simply means, no use of handphone, no long calls, might means no dropping by, late replies & of course, loneliness. Indeed, sounds like he's the only one that can make me smile. Well, thats not true! I am happy in school, its just.. This special kind of happiness is whats different from the happiness i had, with everyone else. You gave me a smile, he's giving me the same smile + permanent picture in my mind.
Should i tell you our love story?
Perhaps, next time. Well, i'm just.. Taking him out of my mind instead of allowing myself to die, missing that darling soldier. *hugs* Byebye, empty ranting over here, so unglam.
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" Face it, Nad. This is Digital Media. Hang in there, stretch out your hand, or give this up. "
Yessss, did you know i can't draw? :((((
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Hello its me & i'm bacccccccccck! =D
Okay, more like, hopefully, i'm back because without me realising it a minute ago, i think i'll be busy again, web designing! Yea yea, it sounds dreadful but not to me! Because i actually intended to go IA elective next year. Oh i heard all those, " You'll regret if you go IA " or the grandma story like " Can you imagine? IA is programming. How many programmers could actually create their own successful programs online? "
Oh don't scare me. I believe if you have the interest, you'll do fineeee. I think i'm certain with this decision. So certainly that, i didn't hand in my 3D assignment! You know why?
1) It requires mouse to do 3D. ANNOYINGGGG! I HATE MOUSE! 2) Procrastinate for too long. You only can afford to scream & stress out & also! Burn midnight oil. Bad habit. 3) 3D just don't appeal to me anymore. I actually didn't practice it for so long that even the simplest function don't make sense to me alr. Thats my most honest 3 reasons why i didn't submit my assignment. First time, though. If you believe me. I really do not like 3D & if i have to retake my 3D module next year, so be it. At least, i've learnt my lesson.
So, yesterday, i went out with my young man! =DDD Its pathetic that we only met twice a week or lucky enough, thrice. Still, i guess twice is good enough because i never regretted any minutes of it. But yesterday was special. *eyebrow goes up & down* With my new girlfriend, Ms Canon EOS 1000D, her presence brighten up our mind soooo absolutely. At least we do not know where we are going, 3 'heads' are better than 2. Hahaha..
Poor Mister that he do not get to go home with a transport for the past friday & saturday (yesterday) because its alr 12:30am. Awesome girlfriend accompanied his late night & early morning under her block, till her boyfriend gets to get a transport home. *wink wink* We weren't used to being out together, anytime after 12am but we did, yesterday & i tell you, the cold air at night or rather, early morning, is awesomeeeeee. Plus my neighbourhood playground is awesome, too. =D
Picture blog today! Oh, most definitely, i'll most the remaining 100+ pictures onto Facebook too. Not now, but soon. Keep in touch, people!
Talking about Ion Orchard, its an awesome place with exceptionally awesome shops! Most suitable for buying birthday presents, if i'm not mentioning anything about brands or prices, but it will definitely be an awesome present for the birthday people.
  
Its enough only when i say its enough.
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